"all my parents do is drink. they hate me. do you know what it's like waking up every morning knowing you're not good enough

What's 'good enough?' You can never be good enough for people who are determined to be hateful. Hate is bitterness and discontent towards something. It is not always warranted. Don't worry about being good enough, maybe just focus on trying to do 'good.' Since this is a sight for asking real people real questions, and your 'social studies' question could get many different answers depending on who answers it, I'll tell you what I believe about being 'good enough.' It's called Ephesians 2:10 "For we are God's handiwork, created in Christ Jesus, to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." Because of John 16:33 "I(Jesus) have told you these things, so that in Me you may have peace. In this world you WILL have trouble, but fear not for I have overcome the world." He is saying what Kari Jobe sang in 'I Am Not Alone.'
I do wake up every morning knowing that I am not good enough. I also tend to go to bed thinking about the things I could have done better, even the things I didn't do at all. I know I am not good enough, but at least I can wake up every morning morning knowing that He is. At this point you could ask something like, "Well, if your 'god' is so darn good then why does He let me suffer? Why are parents that hate me allowed? What's so good about that?" It's an important question. There is not easy answer. All I know is the law of 1 Peter 5:6-7 "Humble yourselves therefore, under God's mighty hand, and He will lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on Him because He does care for you." While you are living in a toxic environment, I hope it brings you a little bit of comfort to know that I am praying for you. I am going to right down your user name and put it on my wall, and whenever I look at it I will pray that God brings joy and hope back into your life. I read your question. I care. 

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