help please, ive been cutting for a long time and i cant break the habit, no one will give me a straight answer. Ive lived a live full on pain, my cutting is just one of those things. i dont know when im cutting until i see the blood on the floor. I just need some help, hotlines are not an option and counseling is not possible because of my position in the military. anything helps.

I've been through this too.

I know it's hard. I know there are many things that trigger your cutting. I noticed you said you live on your pain. I did too. One way I coped was instead of cutting myself, I would have a rubber band on my self and snap the rubber band to my wrist when I felt like cutting. This helped a lot, and I still do it to this day. Please trust me, when you look back at yourself in the future you won't believe you did that to your beautiful body. Please trust me on this one. <3