What is trauma bonding My ex gf was great at the start I fell for her after a month. It felt rushed and I fell for her quickly , after a few months she absued me and used me

I can't get over her and I keep crying

this is not normal, either your a masochist or you need serious therapy. i am not joking.

Either talk to someone you trust or get a therapist. For the abusing part maybe call the police to sort things out. It may be extra but at least get a therapist. I hope you have a better life than today. May God be with you.

Explanation:

you are who you are and no one can change that about you. for one being lesbian is not a crime and two you are still great no matter who you like. the people that you like does not effect who you are as a person. as for why you are like that no one can answer. the only explanation i can give you is that it was who you were meant to be.