Hahah! my time to shine!!I actually have it so hang in!
Explanation:
Schizophrenia
Requires a medical diagnosis
Schizophrenia is characterized by thoughts or experiences that seem out of touch with reality, disorganized speech or behavior, and decreased participation in daily activities. Difficulty with concentration and memory may also be present.
People may experience:
Behavioral: social isolation, disorganized behavior, aggression, agitation, compulsive behavior, excitability, hostility, repetitive movements, self-harm, or lack of restraint. Cutting or harm to one self. Masochistic thoughts or tendencies?
Mood: anger, anxiety, apathy, feeling detached from self, general discontent, loss of interest or pleasure in activities, elevated mood, or inappropriate emotional response. Laughing when not not needed or appropriate?
* This morning. Friday Feb. 12. Woke up two times last night because paranoia and weird dreams. Sister was taken away by Kate the Chaser. Woke up. Looked at my sloth teddy bear and it was the Rake. Looking back it was not. Keep hearing country music when I go to sleep. Sister usually uses music for sleeping, but it keeps me up. Hearing country music when I wake up every morning. Itās my mom. But why did it play in the middle of the night. And it was from outside.
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* Did the dishes on Wednesday Feb. 10. Looked in mirror and saw slenderman. Blinked and it was gone. Hearing sound come form the vents when Iām home alone. And only then when Iām alone. And itās turned off.
* Small unwanted noises scare me. Like the vents. Or the neighbors next door. Or the wind chimes that wake me up in the dead of night. I couldnāt sleep last night because of them. The paranormal makes me paranoid
But sometimes when Iām home alone. I get scared that he will come to k!ll me. But Iām not afraid of the dying part, more of how we would. Heās a marine. He know where it hurts and where to do it at. He could choke me. Or sell me. I feel choking or shooting me in the lungs or heart would be the most least painful death. But choking hurts. A bullet is a better death.
. I just donāt have any respect for this lump I call my body. I donāt brush my teeth. I donāt brush my hair. I donāt wash my face. I donāt even clip my nails anymore. The most I ever do is pick them off. I do shower almost everyday. And use pads. I always change my underwear. But I hardly want to wash clothes anymore. When I shower is usually the only time Iām ok mentally. Until I start thinking and zoning out. I like to sit under the hot water and let it run down my hair and back. I just sit there with my whole body in the water, at full heat because my legs go numb when I do. Then I just zone out. I donāt think about anything else except what Iām thinking about. At some point when the water starts to get very cold I start washing myself. It usually takes about 5 minutes for me to finish washing myself. When I zone out I usually stay in there for what feels like 5 minutes but it actually half an hour. I lose time when Iām in the shower. I have only had two times Iāve had an hallucination there. The first time I was taking a shower with the sliding door open. I was scared to close it for fear someone would kill my family then come in for me. I looked over and saw Jeff the Killer standing next the sink. As if he was sneaking up on me. I jumped. Then he was gone. I close the shower door form now on. The second time was not long ago. Probably last week at most. The showerdoor was closed. The bathroom door is always locked when Iām in there.I looked out and saw cartoon act. I jumped. When I looked again it was just a black towel. I havenāt had any shower images recently.
Avoiding human interaction. I donāt like my sister much as I should. I think sheās spoiled and usually dread the time when she comes home from daycare. I donāt have any friends from school here. I do have Taylor. Sheās my best friend
Catatonic schizophrenia was characterized by catatonia. This causes a person to experience either excessive movement, called catatonic excitement, or decreased movement, known as a catatonic stupor.
reality in some form. This includes hearing voices or holding false beliefs that may lead to paranoia.
* Like I said earlier. Iām delusional and think of myself as someone Iām not. Iām in Christianity, but I always doubt in āGodā sometimes I wonder if god is actually the devil, and Jesus is the trap. So those who sin are the ones who are going to be rewarded, and the ones that are for Jesus are the ones to burn in hell. Alike if Jesus and Satan switched roles, making it impossible to tell who is fake or real. But I have never been paranoid about these thoughts.
