You gave me affection for the first time in what seems like forever... i messed up badly with you and i probably messed with your trust.. I love you just the same as I did before. but I can't say it no more.. I don't deserve to say ily. I don't deserve to still feel this way. one simple hug from u and i just cry because of how badly it hurts to know you don't love me no more.. i wish I didn't still care then it'd be less embarrassing for you and me. But I can't help but dream about how we used to be.. then i wake up and start crying knowing that it is just how things used to be and nothing more.. you are well aware that I still care. but i'm not so sure that you realize just how bad it is killing me inside...

Someone please give me something. something to numb this feeling. my heart is full of sorrow and love for someone i can no longer have.. please... take this feeling away and let me be alone. i want the haunting of his love to disappear.. i want all my feelings to disappear.. please.. give me something to make myself disappear.

(this is a message i wish i could tell my ex. just me venting out in the empty wide ibis.)

Read the passage from animal farm. as clover looked down the hillside her eyes filled with tears. if she could have spoken her thoughts, it would have been to say that this was not what they had aimed at when they had set themselves years ago to work for the overthrow of the human race. these scenes of terror and slaughter were not what they had looked forward to on that night when old major first stirred them to rebellion. if she herself had had any picture of the future, it had been of a society of animals set free from hunger and the whip, all equal, each working according to his capacity, the strong protecting the weak, as she had protected the lost brood of ducklings with her foreleg on the night of major's speech. instead—she did not know why—they had come to a time when no one dared speak his mind, when fierce, growling dogs roamed everywhere, and when you had to watch your comrades torn to pieces after confessing to shocking crimes. there was no thought of rebellion or disobedience in her mind. she knew that, even as things were, they were far better off than they had been in the days of jones, and that before all else it was needful to prevent the return of the human beings. whatever happened she would remain faithful, work hard, carry out the orders that were given to her, and accept the leadership of napoleon. but still, it was not for this that she and all the other animals had hoped and toiled. it was not for this that they had built the windmill and faced the bullets of jones's gun. such were her thoughts, though she lacked the words to express them. what was most likely orwell’s purpose for writing this passage? to show that clover is more sensitive to violence than the others to remind readers of major's speech and the original rebellion to present napoleon as a cruel leader unworthy of the animals’ support to represent misled followers and their dashed hopes for better lives